The Tragedy of Lost Joy
It is a tragedy when a Christian
begins to lose their joy. It is a tragic path on which to set off, living a
life that calls us to serve God, but having no joy in the gifts that He secured
for us so long ago.
Calling the loss of joy a tragedy
might strike you as melodramatic. You might be reading this thinking I could
benefit from a lesson in the ways of this big, bad world and the true tragedies
it holds. But when a pattern emerges, exposing how we rob ourselves of a once
zealous joy by bearing a burdensome view of service, we might be taking a
tentative step towards the tragedy of unbelief.
Have you, like me, gone through the
odd day when serving feels less joyful and more like hard work? Thankfully such
days don’t see us bound to the
problematic path towards unbelief. Our book for March, Serving Without Sinking by John Hindley bears the tagline “How to serve Christ and keep your joy”. My prayer is that as we dive into it together, we
might come to a rebalanced view of God, service and ourselves in the scheme of
God’s mission.
Early on in the second chapter, ‘Serving Can Be Joyful’, we are taken to Matthew
11 and Jesus’ declaration that he
offers rest and a yoke to take upon ourselves that is easy and light.
Have you ever read those few verses,
only to be left wondering how taking up a yoke and rest go together? But what
stands out in this chapter is that both of what Jesus offers here live in
tandem in the Christian experience, rather than being at odds with each other.
Jesus offers His people rest. He offers us a yoke, a job to take up in the work
of His kingdom and plan.
As we dig deeper with the writer, it
seems obvious that the yoke would quickly become hard and weighty without the
rest that comes from security in Christ. Likewise the rest would be fruitless
without the pursuit of what pleases the God who grants it to us. It is when
there is an imbalance that our service swings in the joyless direction.
The third chapter continues on to
expose our easily adopted wrong views of God, ourselves, and service: a problem
of the heart. Reading on I recognised the wrong views I have held at one time
or another, views which meant I robbed myself of the joy that comes from
service. Don’t we all, now and again,
view service not as a privilege, but a burden, not as a response but a
requirement, not a contribution but the lynchpin.
It’s at this point that I want to commend the author’s genuine, humble and real approach to this struggle
we all face. Hindley is not afraid to use the very personal pronoun ‘I’ and to put himself
forward as the prime example of every misguided attitude to service. As I read
through and feel challenged about what’s
going on in my own heart, Hindley has already relieved me from the burden of
feeling like the world’s one and only sinner.
These first few chapters of Serving Without Sinking have so far
brought me to understand the views and attitudes that can lead to my resentment
of serving. Hindley paints pictures of a range of people we might be like in
our attitude to serving. Did you recognise yourself in any (or all) of them? I
have been the person who serves because I think God needs that from me. I have
been the person who serves only because I know it will be seen and admired. I
have been the person who serves to try and stay in God’s good books. But God is the one who has graciously
outstretched a saving arm to fallen people like me. We should take a step back
in amazement at the thought that this God just as graciously allows us to be
included in making this message known.
About our contributor: I’ve been a Sydney girl all twenty-three years
of my life and have just moved from the leafy 'burbs of Northern Sydney to the
narrow streets and terraces of Newtown.
I grew up being taught about Jesus from a young
age, and while I always thought there was a God and that the God of the Bible
seemed to be Him, it was in my early years of high school that I truly
understood the Gospel and put my trust in Jesus.
In early February I started studying at Moore
Theological College, in the hope of completing the Bachelor of Divinity. So far
it has been thoroughly stretching my understanding of God, His Word, and how to
bring it to bear on people’s lives.
I’ve had a long-standing affinity for reading,
writing and the English language, and I was able to indulge this for three
years studying media and writing at Macquarie Uni before I started an MTS
apprenticeship at Crossway Anglican Church, Carlingford. It’s a great gift to
have access to the Bible and know God through it, and I love poring over it to
soak up what it reveals about God and His plan for us in Jesus Christ. I also
love reading novels and quirky short stories, and in recent times particularly
I’ve come to really appreciate the availability of good Christian books and
their value in helping us understand the scriptures.
As well as this I love baking, watching The
Office (US, of course!), sewing, and going out to see live bands, all with
a cup of good coffee or tea in hand.