The Idiot on Faith
I've been reading through 1 Thessalonians with my
colleagues at work. It's been a great way to begin a year of evangelism and
ministry as Paul and the Thessalonian church are such great examples of living
faith. Paul is constantly encouraging the Thessalonians that he loves them and
prays for them, and exhorts them to "rejoice always, pray continually,
give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ
Jesus" (1 Thess 5:16-18).
As a staff team, we were all challenged by this call
to constant prayer, and, especially remembering the desperate circumstances the
new Thessalonian believers found themselves in, reflected that we are only able
to feel less urgent in prayer because we've closed our eyes to the dangers and
needs all around us. It's easy to reflexively pray when in desperate
circumstances, it has been often noted that even some atheists will pray in
desperate need.
Prayer is, quite rightly an indicator of the strength
of our relationship with God, just as conversation and time spent together is
an indicator in other relationships of how we value the person, and who we
think they are. However, prayer in and of itself cannot be counted simply as a
task to be crossed off a list of spiritual duties. Even though it is as useful
to habitually pray as it is to be habitually polite, at some point, at the end
of it all, prayer is the offering of our heart up to God, an expression of the
very core of our being. In The Idiot, Dostoyevsky beautifully and
brilliantly explores the inner qualities of prayer as an aspect of faith. My
favourite passage about this is in Part Two, Chapter Four.
Muishkin and Rogozhin have re-entered Rogozhin's house
after Nastasia Filipovna's birthday party. As the cross through the room, they
observe a painting Rogozhin's father bought of Jesus just cut down from the
cross. When Rogozhin asks the Prince's opinion of the picture, Muishkin remarks
that "a man's faith might be ruined by looking at that picture", and
although Rogozhin agrees, neither elaborate as to why. However, it does raise a
question from Rogozhin to the Prince, "do you believe in God?"
In good Jesus-like imitation, Muishkin almost answers
Rogozhin with a question of his own, but instead, presents together four recent
conversations.
One conversation was with an atheist, who the Prince
feels doesn't quite understand the heart of faith, and thus cannot truly reject
it. Another conversation was in a pub about a peasant who prayed for
forgiveness while in the act of murdering his friend. As Rogozhin summarises
them, “one is an absolute unbeliever, the other is such a thorough-going
believer that he murders his friend to the tune of a prayer!”
Muishkin's third conversation is with a drunk who
sells the Prince his cross at a cheater's price. Muishkin calls him a Judas,
although reserves judgement on his 'betrayal'. And then finally, the Prince
encounters a young mother whose baby has smiled at her for the first time. As
the Prince watches she "suddenly crossed herself- oh, so devoutly! 'What
is it my good woman?'" The Prince asks. Her reply? "Exactly as is a mother's
joy when her baby smiles for the first time into her eyes, so is God's joy when
one of His children turns and prays to Him for the first time, with all his
heart!"
While the peasant is certainly obeying Paul's exhortation
to 'pray continually', and thus reflects a true bending of his heart toward
God, this isn't followed through with his actions! He murders his friend! And
yet… and yet… we certainly cannot say that he is rejecting or ignoring God
altogether...
Muishkin remarks of the young mother that her comment
was "such a deep. Refined, truly religious thought - a thought in which
the whole essence of Christianity was expressed in one flash - that is, the
recognition of God as our Father, and of God's joy in men as His own children,
which is the chief idea of Christ. She was a simple country-woman - a mother,
it's true - and perhaps, who knows, she may have been the wife of the drunken
soldier!”
His final reflection is that "the essence of
religious feeling has nothing to do with reason, or atheism, or crime, or acts
of any kind - it has nothing to do with these things and never had. There is
something besides all this, something which the arguments of atheists can never
touch."
Even though I must part ways with the Prince in saying
that the essence of religion does have something to do with 'acts
of any kind'. I feel Dostoyevsky has expressed here a truth my own heart
echoes.
There is an essence in my relationship with God that
means separate to whatever act I am performing at the time, I am His beloved
child. And thus, reason, action, philosophy, emotions can never touch the core
relationship, the DNA link that identifies me, wherever I am, in whatever
circumstances, as part of God's family.
"Exactly as is a mother's joy when her baby smiles
for the first time into her eyes, so is God's joy when one of His children
turns and prays to Him for the first time, with all his heart!"